Daily Notes

5/27/08

Old Times

It seems as if sometimes I get lost in old memories of grade school and highschool and college times. I wonder about what all those people are doing now. Those old friends I had, even those old boyfriends. Today I read in the paper that my very first boyfriend, (when I was 14) had a baby. I guess it just made me wonder for a while. What if I had went down any other road and ended up with someone else other then my husband. What kind of life would I have. Maybe I would be thinner, or wealthier or happier. Then I think, maybe I would be living in a trailer park or maybe my husband couldn't have kids. I guess it's all in Gods big plan. I love my husband sooooo much and I love my kids more then anything in the world. And then when I think about how much better my life could be, I realize it really couldn't. Real life is not like the tv show or the movies. So, yeah, I guess I wonder and think about things. But mostly, I just think about how great things are.

5/24/08

My Little Guy

My little guy will be one year old next month. Wow! It seems like it was just last week when I was going into the hospital to give birth. He sure didn't stay a baby for very long. He was big when he was born, and already up to 30 pounds. He is as big as a 2 year old! My big guy was a lot smaller when we was born and he is 4 and a half now. My oh my, where does the time go! I get so excited when I think about what they might do with their lives. Who they will marry, what they will become. You know what, life really is good.

4/25/08

Life or Death

Last night my son said to me "Mommy, don't want you to die. I would be sad and I would be all alone." I thought about it and said "I will try very hard not to die." But this really got me thinking. I have to take better care of myself. My children are the most important thing in my life and one of their major necessities is me. How selfish of me to take that away from them because I could not keep my health under control. I HAVE to be more active. I HAVE to eat better. I love them too much not too. I just simply love them too much.