Some Random Thoughts

This year has been a year full of experiences and life changing lessons for me. I've experienced some things that I never thought I would in my lifetime and I've learned and grown so much from that.
Let Go and Live: I discovered that when I quit worrying about everyone else and all their problem, I can have more time for myself and the things I need. If they don't care about their problems, then why should I? Throughout this process I have found time to exercise and eat right and it's helped me to loose a significant amount of weight this year. Something I've been struggling to do for so long. I've been more motivated to to put my best foot forward and enjoy the small things in life a little bit more.
Friends are So Important: One of the biggest things I've come to grips with this year is how incredibly important my friends are. This also ties into putting myself first. Taking time to enjoy the company of my friend. Cherishing their friendship. I feel so lucky to have so many great friends in my life and I only regret that it has took me this long to realize that. I've tried very hard this year to reconnect with friendship that have died out and I've even make an effort to make a few new friends along the way. We can never have too many friends.
Life will Never Be Perfect: I've learned this year that no matter what I do or how I spend my life, I will never have everything that I desire and still some of the things I don't. We will also have to go without a thing or two and must learn how to accept that. I watch others as they act like they have it all, but I've learned this year that no one truly does. I've had some pretty strong desires for a few things this year and its been very hard to live with the idea that it won't happen. This has been a very good lesson for me. I must learn to find that peace within myself. That has been a bigger challenge then anything else.
I hope I continue to grown and change for the better as the year comes to an end and I'm very excited to see what the new year will bring.

10 Years

So Dawson had his 10th birthday. It's hard to believe that it's been that long since he first came into my life. He's an amazing boy, full of love and kindness. He is my best friend, my whole world!

A Work in Progress

In an attempt to reconnect with my expressive/creative side...i decided to try out a new story...let me know what you think.....


It had gotten a little to normal in her marriage. Everyday she did the laundry, made the dinner, kept the house running. She'd kiss her husband every night before he went to bed and every morning before he went to work, it became something that seemed to melt into the mundane routine. Eighteen years of marriage and she finally began to realize how lost she was, how forgotten she felt, how lonely he had began to make her feel.

As she shut off the TV, she laid there and listened to the sound of him snoaring, she began to wonder what had happened to her life. Would he even notice if she put herself first for a change? Would he even care if for once she was true to her own wants and desires? That thought would sit with her for several weeks.

It's pretty amazing the way life throws you twists and turns. Often times you feel like theres no way out, but just when you least expect it, someone walks into your life and flips it upside down. This would soon happen to her.

He wasn't quite what she was expecting, but something caught her eye, something made her stay.  There was a certain mystery about him, and it kept pulling her in. And in time, with him, he began to make her feel new. For the frist time in so long, she felt beautiful and wanted.  A feeling that had long dissappeard in her marriage. He took out time for her, to listen to her, to gently hold her,  to be there when she cried and carried on. He was there to share her desires that had long gone unfullfilled. She found herself thinking of him all day long, wanting to be with him and ofter to him the answers to his own emptiness.

She wondered if he could really be so good, so wonderful, or was she just being foolish? How could someone like him come along and give her all those things she had been missing? How could someone really care so much?

Months went by, and she became someone that her husband never thought she could ever be. She became independent, confident, beautiful, desirable, and unfaithful. Her whole life had changed in so many ways.
And just as mysteriously as the stranger came into her life, he slipped out. Leaving her wondering where he had gone and what was the whole meaning. Was it to make her grow? Was it to renew her faith in love? What is to turn her into a better direction?

It's pretty amazing the way life throws you twist and turns. Often times, you feel like life can never again be as good as it used to, but just when you least expect it, life flips you upside down.

12 Simple Pleasures I Discovered in 2012

12. Spincah and Artichoke Dip on Pita Chips

11. Orange Leaf Soft Serve Yogart

10. The peace, quiet and extra time of both kids being in school

9. The New High Efficiency Washer and Dryer

8. My new, updated cell phone

7. My dads new and bigger house, it has a bigger garage, and more space for our garage sales

6. A kiss on the cheek from my nephew, Colby

5. The sound of Brody singing in the bathtub

4. The compassion that Dawson has for everyone around him

3. Listening to my boys laugh

2. This kiss my husband gives me every morning

1. The surrounding love of my family